A Woman in Love, Addiction is one woman’s account of the trials and tribulations of a marriage after the splendor of love’s prance seduces; the honeymoon phase is over, and their life together begins.
He has changed; secrets begin to come out regarding his fidelity as the attachment of man and wife is realized; with her need for him emotionally and especially physically. She begins to question their lives together. As dedication to her family means more to her than her own needs, and how mistrust takes its toll on a love that’s out of control.
Their connection to one another is more than the disruptive nature of circumstances. The heart wants what it wants and so far, it has won.
Mentally she battles with the psychotic episodes of her husband, his extreme highs and lows; though mentally exhausted, feeling worn out and completely over it; Plus physically beaten. she still carries a torch for him in her heart that cannot be extinguished.
Clementine is constantly wondering, what does their marriage stand for? After years of loving the same man and knowing that others have loved him too. A man who says he is in-love with her until death! He says he’ll ie without her! Yet she knows he cannot push past his alter ego, a sexual sadist who professes love to other women and steals away to see them. His reality though is a devoted loving and caring husband and father, supportive and reliable.
He is aware of his alter-ego but is unable to control the lust driven demon and his biggest fear is that his wife should find out and cheat on him or worse leave him.
God says “forgive lest ye be not forgiven…”
My vows stated “for better or worse…”
Is it obsession or desperation, that deception couldn’t even break them? Maybe it’s addiction! The thing that keeps them going as the wife tells herself; I will leave, but never does. I will cheat but never does. The husband uses the vows “until death do us part” and “for better or worse” stating it over and over again demonstrating his dominant persona to control her, seeing this as a means to reasoning and comfort, then he’ll say “you are and will always be my one and only Mrs.” The wife knows this maybe deductive reasoning on his part but, the love she feels for him is real. They dedicate themselves to each other in good times as he takes it back in bad times, no matter what, they stay together. They cannot get enough of one another.
How does he blend into her life as a total dominant both knowing they can never leave each other? Can she deal with his ego? To whom much is given much is required, he tells her. The power crusade continues incorporated with the sex fixation, which queries the thought of them ever being completely satisfied or even happy though their addition remains.